Monday, November 29, 2004
some things in life just don't seemed to get into ppl's head
i seriously don't know whats wrong with u
you kept crying over small lil stuffs
can't u juz be stronger a little?
it doesn't make ppl pity u when u cry.
it makes ppl feel disgusted cuz of your identity.
u r that someone who slapped another one n said sorry,thinking tt u r forgiven
life is not tt simple. when u r attached, u treat your friends lk junk, but when u needed them,
u treat them lk gold. is this the kind of treatment your friends should get in return.
when u're angry or sad, we asked juz out of concern, n what u did? u scolded them! pushing them away. harlow!we could just leave u alone and pretend we don't have senses but we didn't cuz tts what friends are for.
ask yourself, do u really treat us as your friends?
i can't stand the way u present yourself, can u be more mature alittle? can u speak in a more mature manner? stop all those whinings and be lk who u are. stop getting yourself into ppl's problem. i am grateful for what ever stuffs u did for me n helped me along the way. but there are just some things i need to get off my chest.
if u wanna know what kind of a person u are, let me tell u. u are someone who can be trusted n lean on.but u make ppl feel inferior cuz of your attitude and u gave ppl an impression tt u are oh so great. u think u r the only person in the whole wide world who has moodswings? i have moodswings too but i try not to show it. even if i do, i didn't vent my anger of scold my friends. who m i to do tt?
do u ever wonder y as a class chairperson, im quite different from others as in i nv scold shout or talk back to any one of u. cuz i think im only a class chairman. no big deal bout tt. in return i get ppl saying to me, im the class chairman,y don't i do this n tt. as one, i should scold my classmates for pissing the teacher off n all tt. u think i felt good? i don't. but i didn't vent my anger on anyone, i just kept it inside me. my problems are no lesser than yours.day by day, it just keep piling up but i didn't resort to killing myself.
i've known u for so lond n i think u haven't change abit. ever since pri sch,u always lk to be teachers' pet n taking everything in hand. u r helpful but sometimes, too helpful.u nv feel for the other party. u talk without thinking.
im not angry with u at all. but i juz don't know why u can't seem to wake up. theres so many things i wanted to tell u. but i didn't cuz i know how u'll feel. i have feelings and i hope tt applies to u too..i've always treated u as my friend and juz wanna thank u for being there for me when i needed someone...hope u'll understand....
XOXO
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