Monday, May 29, 2006
i don't understand y r u so obsessed and into feng shui so much!
if u r like tt..den tts ur problem...but im not...
i believe myself more than feng shui...i don't need a feng shui man
to tell me what clothes i should wear, what school to study, where to go
and what to eat! I am
FIT to do it myself...
u depend on feng shui soo much tt u neglected how the fuck i felt..
yes...im fucking pissed with u...but u know shit bout it..
cuz whenever i tell u tt..u'll just
shut me up and when i don't
tell u bout it..u keep asking..and when i tell u again..u scold the shit out of me..
please la...im not like u...i know how to lead my life..
i dun really need a feng shui man to tell me how to make decisions..
his comments for sure i'll listen...but whether to follow exactly what he says..i think i've to think twice..
making decisions concerning bout my future or studies ...
80% lies in me...i know what i wanna do..
i know what i like..y must i do something tt i
detest just because tts y the feng shui man ask me to do..
im stressed enough already...please don't add fuel to the blazing fire..
im afraid i won't be able to take it..
if u were to know...i already tahan for the pass 10 years..
i kept EVERYTHING single thing to myself..
i settle my own problems..there are so many things u don't even know
cuz i don't want you to get worried...
whether im happy sad or angry...its within me...
everytime when i wanna tell u smth...
u don't seemed to answer properly...u know how hurting tt it?!
u kept asking me what i wanna eat for dinner and all..
and say i should stop eating outside food..
have u ever thought y i always come home after 10pm
ever since school starts?
u think i enjoy staying outside until so late at night?
cuz i don't wanna step into an empty house everytime i go home..
And have u wonder why for this semester i only eat dinner at home for 2 times..
cuz whether u cook or not ...there's no difference..
i'll still be eating alone...nobody in the house...
i would rather eat with my friends than eating alone..
or the most i don't eat dinner...i wouldn't die would i?!
But after so long of numbness i get from ya'll..
im used to it...
i just don't want my life to be lead by the feng shui man..
i wouldn't feel a sense of accomplishment..it sucks..it really sucks...
XOXO
10:37:00 PM
Saw him at the airport yesterday.
went there to study with lydia and he suddenly appeared..
he is damn handsome...i tried stalking him..hahaha...nth to do la..
but ended up stalking his friend( a fat lady)
instead..and the worst is that the fat lady dissappeared into thin air just like tt..
hahaha...was really shocked to see him..he's so handsome!!...
ok..enough...
exams are coming...i hate finance...
the subject is already but it won't be alright with a damn lousy ought to be sacked lecturer..
she's the worst lecturer i've ever met in my whole life...
wait till exams are over im gonna
skin her alive!
her questions are so irritating...her face is so irritating..Her teachings ... so irritating!
i slept at 7am just cuz of finance...and woke up at 11.40am just to do finance..
and i know shit bout it still...
i've got school tmr at 930am...supposed to met lydia at 815am..
so i've to wake up at 7am..(i need 1hr to prepare k!) ...
now its 3.15am...i need to wake up in another 3 3/4 hrs time..
so might as well don't sleep right...!
XOXO
3:17:00 AM
