Sunday, September 17, 2006
so many things happened for the past few days.
it just keeps coming, stacking higher and higher each day.
i tried to let it go but i can't.
i dun wanna feel this way but somehow , the harder i try, the harder i fall.
i feel lk a lost soul.
not only for the fact tt i failed law.
but there are just so many obstacles that stops me from getting on with life.
what should i do? where should i start from? when should i get over it?
it just keeps haunting me.
time and time again, i tried hard to put down everything and get my feet back on the ground.
i really did try, i really did! but i failed .
i feel so messed up right now.
when will all these shit go away?
i want it dumped right now. but it'll always leave an impact in my life.
i thought everything would be fine after a day or two..or at most a week.
but it seems like its not.
i'm still pulled down by it.
sometimes i really wanna cut myself to see whether it still hurts.
but nomatter how deep the cut is, it can never be compared to the way im feeling right now.
this just ain't right. this is wrong! really wrong!
i really wanna give up. i really do.
but no one would allow me to do so.
its not all bout studies. its way far from that.
i always thought i was strong enough to face all these things tts happening..
but i was wrong, desperately wrong.
i can't seemed to move on with life. i feel like stopping it right now.
-it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is- XOXO
9:26:00 PM
