Wednesday, April 25, 2007
I'm so so so tired of studying!
I wanna quit school!
I don't care about my future anymore.
taking uol is making me scared of studying!
i've never felt so scared of something in my whole life.
why must my life be so miserable?
i don't get jealous whenever i see people slacking last time cuz i was one of them
Now! i got jealous everytime i see people smiling ! i don't know why.
Studying has made me crazy, sick and cold ( cuz my hands are always cold even my students also asked me why). How i know why my hands are so cold !? crazy!
I really can't be bothered whether i pass or fail this yr..
Life is meaningless without having a time off to just sit back and relax.
Life is meaningless w/o getting 12 hrs of sleep.
Life is meaningless when you get paranoid every single minute.
Life is meaningless when your mind is just thinking of how to study .
Life is meaningless when people all around you are enjoying their lives.
Life is meaningless when you can't go shopping even though you're loaded with $$$ !!!
Life is meaningless when you don't even have time to eat.
Life is meaningless w/o when you get sick for no reasons but studying.
Life is meaningless when you go UOL.
Life is meaningless when you tried your very best to study but in the end you understand any of it.
Life is meaningless when you can't even watch tv.
Life is meaningless when your 2nd bf is your books.
Life is meaningless when you don't take cabs cuz you're studying most of the time.
Life is meaningless when your exams are next month and you haven't finish studying at least 1/4 of the whole subject.
Life is meaningless when you can only get to sleep at 5am every single day.
Life is meaningless when you get distracted most of the time.
Life is meaningless when you can't make time for your ppl that you love.
Life is meaningless when u have to reject outings time and time again.
Life is meaningless when you heard that your friends studied so hard and in the end got less than 5 marks for the exams.
Life is meaningless when you keep stating down why life is meaningless...
I can still go on but today..im really tired
my student is super lazy today but i can't be bothered ..cuz like i said..i'm tired.
When i'm tired..i don't give a fuck about anything..anyone..
i really feel lk sleeping now cuz i'm just 0.0001 % close to being sick.
BUT ! i'm not done studying ...so i can't sleep!
My parents are going to malaysia tmr..
should i be happy or sad?
it doesn't matter cuz everytime when i'm not at home, they're @ home.
and everytime when i'm home, they're already sleeping.
i feel lk im an orphan..no difference when i've parents and when i don't.
parents are not just there to give u $$..you can give me all the $$ you want but it won't help me from thinking that life is meaningless.
Let me see what did i eat today.. .. ..
oh! i didn't eat today! thanks to what ?
studying! and now i've to go to bed in hunger!
Thanks UOL, for making my life so meaningless!
XOXO
10:30:00 PM
