i need to change my blog.
i need to do so many many things like bitchings and so on..
no. i can't bitch anymore. if not leo's gonna call me ..nvm.
what am i doing ? i'm actually supposed to be studying.
aparently i'm not NOW. i was just now k.
i did one essay question. i wrote, not typed, 2 pages long k .
(like so? im supposed to write more than that)
still, its my 100% effort!
i don't care, i still feel good.

but its only the first chapter.
the exam questions will include at least 3 chapters in one.
i can see the the construction ah nehs pathing my road to hell.
quite done and not very far though.
hello devil. goodbye angels. ( dumb!)

i've done my planning, using of black papers and milky pens,
drawing mushrooms and stars, pasting stickers everywhere,
signing off as dawn timberlake, but its not helping me focusing
my mind on my studies.
what should i do? its time for plan B!

yesterday was my 10 000th time calling my student a loser.
he don't listen , he don't concentrate, he don't do his homework,
he plays, he don't give a damn bout his studies (all these sound familiar.),
how's he gonna pass? wait.. he didn't pass at all .
oh well, the more he does tt, the easier it is for me to be his tutor.
(im like talking bout myself)

one of my students parents thanked me ever since day 1 till now
cuz their son got all As for eng maths science.
thanks to me of course! his mum said tt his english seldom pass and
his science is not so good. seriously, all i did was asking him to do his work,
if he doesn't know, i'll explain to him. i don't give him homework
and neither do i mark his work. i don't know how did he get an A all of a sudden for english.
nvm, its not important.
as long as he improves, so does my reputation.

chinese new year is round the corner! nope. i'm not excited bout it!
i haven't gotten my clothes yet! im so dead!
im so fucking busy and the shops are not helping!
most of the clothes are black!
what's the point of having money when you can't buy
anything that you need or like !

first and foremost, i need to cut down on my cabs.
leo definitely agree on that.
she's been telling me not to waste money and i didn't refuse to listen k.
i just forgot.
leo, basic necessities leo!
its just like asking you not to eat kiam kiam for 1 day.

my maid's gone for good.
she's not a bad maid but my parents said that we can't
have a thief in the house.
the last time they said tt was when i was in sec 2.
i stole thousands of cash from them.
i regretted. i didn't apologize at all.
guessed at that point of time i'm still holding on to my pride.
im really really sorry.
alright. let bygones be bygones.

i need time. more time. much more time.
bring me back to the day that i just started my holidays.
let me sleep for 10 weeks and i'll be contented.
hopefully when i wake up later, it'll be june 2007.
im crossing my fingers.
im counting on you fairy god mother.