Saturday, March 11, 2006
a few years back..i did something tt even me myself cannot be forgiven
it was horrible..i felt so childish and lame..
i was in either sec1 or sec2 ..i can't remember..
actually, i didn't wanna think much about it but just a few days ago..
i was talking on the phone with this friend and i suddenly talked about it..
and i felt guilty ONCE again..
i remembered tt during my secondary school days..
i was one of the worst arsehole in school..
i felt so ashame..
i made friend with this butch who's 1 yr older than me..
me, my best friend and
her were
quite close.
we were in the same CCA and we spent most of time together.. ( if im not wrong)
we had fun for about 1/2 yr or so until i did something really stupid.
one day i decided to give
her a letter..
it was a nicely decorated one...not really decorated la..but its the layout tts presentable.
but the content was so damn rotten..
i gave
her this lyrics of a song...titled: 'UGLY'..lol....-.-"
BUTim not trying to say tt
she's ugly..
in fact..
she's not ugly at all for goodness sake..
y am i so stupid to give
her tt stupid piece of lyrics..
i thought it was meant to be a joke..( ya! a joke.....wadeva dawn..)
she threw it in the end..i guessed..
her mood was rotten that day..
she didn't scold me or anything..( i wonder why)
i rather
her scold me ...at least i'll feel better...
she was really hurt i guessed...
because of tt piece of paper..
we kinda drift apart..
even my best friend said tt i was too much..
i guessed i really went off the limit..
i really wanna say a
BIG sorry to
her..
although i don't have the chance..
even though i have..i dun think i can bring myself to face
her..
its so embarrassing k...
i just told my another friend about it and she kept laughing! wth..
Really..i am truly
sorry.
hope tt i'm forgiven.
XOXO
8:11:00 PM
