Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Utterly Disappointed..
finally i can use these words at the Most appropriate time of the year..
im really upset by
someone who is closest to me right now..
she don't seemed to understand how i feel and all..
understand don't literally mean as to put
herself in my shoes...
but
she should know how much effort i did put in to save a friendship that
was 1/2 ruined between me and
another friend.
whenever ppl ask me y aren't im with
this person...
then i'll say cuz we're not as close as b4 right not..
den they'll say : must be
you(me) , leave
her alone ....
although i know tt they're joking..
but how many times do i have to listen to such reply over and over again?
it made it seems like its all my fault.
im the cause of everything shit tt happened...
y must i always make the first move?
i did..but
SHE didn't seemed to response and all..
and
PEOPLE STILL THINK THAT I DIDN'T DO ANYTHINGeveryone cares bout how
she felt...
but nobody cares bout how i felt..
YOU asked me to sit down and talk to her ....
asked me to ask
her ask out one day to talk things out...
but have
YOU ever think like why i never?
cuz i've already done it!
and
you ...
YOU...the closest friend of mine actually made it seemed
like i didn't do anything ...
I thought
you know me better than anyone else
i stood up for
you when
SHE insulted
you...
you may say that its ok with
you..
but its not with me...
and this is what i get in return...
maybe
you mean a different thing...
but asking me to make the first move again
is trying to tell me that im at total fault..
its wrong of me to be close to someone else rather than
HER..
let me ask
YOU..
why can't
she make the first move?
why can
she take the initative to say things to my face?
why can't
she talk things out to me first rather through someone else?
why issit that im always uner the black list?!
why issit that people hear what
she has to say and str8 away thinks
that im a
BITCH?!
YOU really let me down...
i talk alot i know...
but this time i really has got nothing to say..
if
YOU said that
she's really hurt...i wonder who's being hurt the most now...
XOXO
2:00:00 AM
